Early this week saw the first true test of the choice I have made so far. Of what I left to look forward to a better world, defined by what it is that I want. I made this choice 2 years ago, the first acid test has really come only now.
It is promotion time in office. And I am not being given one. All is well on the work front. But they see me as being negative. May be I am just saying the truth. But they cannot take it, so they find me as negative.
But that is besides the point. The point is that somewhere I still care, and I want my efforts to be recognized. But the whole basis of shifting here and doing what I wanted to do was that I do not care how this goes. It is interesting that there is a part of me that still cares. May that is what is slowing things down for me. I think I should stop caring completely :)
It is promotion time in office. And I am not being given one. All is well on the work front. But they see me as being negative. May be I am just saying the truth. But they cannot take it, so they find me as negative.
But that is besides the point. The point is that somewhere I still care, and I want my efforts to be recognized. But the whole basis of shifting here and doing what I wanted to do was that I do not care how this goes. It is interesting that there is a part of me that still cares. May that is what is slowing things down for me. I think I should stop caring completely :)
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