Tuesday, 9 February 2010

of why this madness

BABU: interesting I don’t have need for a lot of money. I want to do things on my own

ME: on your own is the only way to make more money I want money so that I can get power and then I will change the fucking world lunch now....talk later

BABU: that is silly. money and power are unconnected. people are the only way for power!

ME: babu money plays a role
don’t know if u get it
also defines wat kind of power u want
I do not want gandhi power baba amte power I want jairam ramesh power. it needs money
food beckons bye

BABU: ok. enjoy food
Btw I want power when young so I cannot wait for money
Talk to you later then

ME: babu money is easiest to get

BABU: so I am not that worried about it

ME: with money comes power think about it

BABU: no money has nothing to do with power. I mean what do you want to do with power

ME: be useful to people

BABU: how?

ME: for starters, primary education.... useful way... not like government

BABU: primary education is useful. but not the govt given one?

ME: they do it in scale... but the way we get educated is important....I want children to grow up unbiased or less biased that is an area that will be worth working on

BABU: less biased to what
I cannot quite fathom what you are saying

ME: the usual sense of right and wrong, good and bad, what life means to people chill chill we will discuss later for now I want money

BABU: I am chill ya

ME: simple

BABU: ok that is a very important thing that you told ya
We have been throwing around words like education and public policy for a long timei want to understand if we actually mean it.

ME: I doubt exact definition I do not know...

BABU: we all mean it mans.

ME: and I think right now I am too tied up to think about it but it will happen small chewable goals babu

BABU: exactly we need to start defining things.

ME: earn enuf to quit and do full time

BABU: I know all that at times I get angry
I mean really angry

ME: so let us park this definition for now.

BABU: at what I have become

ME: angry abt what? What have u become?

BABU: small, miniscule object living the well defined life that bothers me

ME: it will change soon we make certain mistakes... it takes time to recover
simple, for example I shud have never bought that car. I could have quit now....but I did and it is hampering my progress now....I get angry too

BABU: yeah. That is an example that quite explains it

ME: frustrated too but it cannot be helped too much I am trying my best to get out of this in a shape to be able to do all that I want to do so just stop thinking for a while

BABU: in a way you are correcti mean there is no way out

ME: there are many defenses to this anger.....

BABU: *no other way

ME: I am just finding the fruitful one...like they say, inaction is also an action....choosing not to act is also a choice...

BABU: correct lets quicken ya babu.

ME: sometimes I feel I am wasting every second sitting and running after things that will have no value....exactly babu.... we need to push this.... soon as possible...

Wednesday, 3 February 2010

of the bus

Today is bus day in bangalore. And i took the bus to work. And I will take the bus home in the evening. Yay! Am so proud of myself :)

Tuesday, 2 February 2010

stuff

Now that I have stopped caring, i feel a burden has lifted. Time to make things happen.