Well I am back :)
And it seems like I want to be chatty again and continue the randomness that I so prone to.
And suddenly now I want to use a lot of images.
At this moment this is how I feel, Like the damn bird in the freaking photo next to this line.
I am flying, sometimes high, sometimes low, but largely I am in my own space. There is little that seems to be coming in the horizon, I have my interactions with others, people I love, people I hate, people I have to talk with to earn my bread, but I am a little in my own freaking world; no connections only. It is like something went dormant, I don't seem to care or worry about anything too much these days. Nothing matters too much and I know that whatever are the problems that may come across me, I know that given enough time and effort and more importantly guts and character, things will be at least OK.
But the file has given me freedom! A sense of not being attached to so many things that I used to be normally attached to. It is not like I am not attached, but somehow it is a different kind of attachment where the only reason for being attached is to have a good time in life. The feeling started a while ago but has steadily grown stronger. The underlying logic is that at every stage, every moment the only thing I want to do is be happy; Not much I must say.
I know the above post is not very coherent, that is because the thoughts are as muddled in my head. I don't know if what I am doing is right, but from now on, the way I am going to behave is going to be based on only one principle:
"There are certain things that you have to do; there is not much choice after that. Beyond that, the only way you can have a life is to do what you want to do at every point in time! The difference in how much of your life you live is simply a direct negative function of the number of things that you have to do, due to the choices that you make in life."