I wonder if age is catching up

Close Friend: Wat u doin?
Me : Work!
Close Friend: Wat wrk u doin
Me : Proposals.
Close Friend: Hmmmm
Close Friend: Maadu maadu
Me : How are you?
Close Friend: Me good
Me : What doing?
Close Friend: Timepass
Me : Where?
Close Friend: Home
Me : Raja na office?
Close Friend: Yup
Me : How come? Office closed for a week aa?
Close Friend: No
Me : And btw, are ameya and sakshi still going around?
Close Friend: I'm chumma taking off
Close Friend: No dude
Close Friend: I told u long back they broke off anta
Me : Illa lei. Don't recall. What happened?
Close Friend: Gone case, I hav told u 3 times, 1st time wen we went to mahab, 2nd time in cosmo, 3rd time in La Casa, this is 4th time
Me : Seriously! Don't recall ya.
Close Friend: Tats y I called u as gone case
Close Friend: :P
Close Friend: Or r u self centered?
Close Friend: Anyways they broke up in Aug saying not compatible wit each other
Me : Nin thale. Gone case only I am. He's okaa?
Close Friend: I'm stil in touch wit ameya, sakshi decided to stay secluded, I dint force
Close Friend: Ya ya he is ok
Close Friend: Very stable guy
Close Friend: He did feel bad
Close Friend: But he feels this is better than living in denial
Me : I always had a feeling they're a mismatch.
Close Friend: :). This is the 4th time u saying the same
Me : :)

Winters

No wonder I love this time of the year. Winter makes you want cozy things - the well used rug, the soft foot cloth, the blazing fire place, the shot of vodka, the slow effect of scotch, the barbeque grill, the feel of hot coffee on your palms when you clutch the tumbler, the fluffy sweater, the sound of Christmas, the recall of the year gone by, the lack of work at office, the festive mood, the lights at 5pm highlighting it is dark so early, the mufflers, the bright skull cap, the expectation of spring, salted almonds, fog in the morning from your mouth, the feel of the scarce sun on your back. Oh, I love winters.

Mainstream

It is silly to dismiss the mainstream in the name of just wanting something better than average. I have seen most such cases fail - miserably. Mainstream has always meant something - power. And for power you need to be good. I have immense respect for people who are powerful and popular in the mainstream.

The elite can never have power. They might have money and influence but real power is in mainstream. The elite live scared without perspective lives.

I think that sort of explains some of the conflicts I face :)

Losing your way around

You see, running your own firm comes with it's sets of own problems. And not all of it merely operational. Many of these problems or issues are philosophical. Babu and I were speaking today about art and why such uncreative things survive. And how Shahrukh Khan is a terrible actor but a terrific salesman. Well the point why I blogged is, survival and what is great need not be the same. It might just be possible that SRK started with a very noble aim of doing great stuff but may be lost his way in his fight to survive. It is not an easy choice.

to feel free

That is the best feeling in the world :)

run baby run

I am itching to run away, to run with single minded devotion to do what I need to get done to be free, to be independent and live the way I want to.

The wait is almost over, I can see the end - Yippie - I want to run away from the madness that my life has been for the last three years and a half now :)

In a distant land

I sit in a distant land...
With no one close in sight...
And I think what is life without the people who love... even if it is heaven!
I'd rather be in hell with people I love than in heaven alone.